I amused myself as I got ready at home in my bathroom. I had a symbolic rope to tie around me again. I did up my own unique tie. I like the way the rope wrapped around my cunt. I put a dress on and said goodbye. Within minutes I was at the trailhead. As I began to walk I immediately got a rise out of feeling the rope under my clothes, the way it pulled my skin as I walked, the way I felt like I was carrying a dirty, sexy little secret under my clothes. It made me feel close to you. I began to imagine you there, walking with me again. I could hear you telling me to slow down, to feel. I felt happy to be going to my new spot that I had scouted out a week earlier. Soon I took off down the side trail and went to my sweet spot by the river. I crossed it to the other side and there found a trio of cedar trees in the middle of which was a perfect little bench seat log. This is my new ritual spot. I got a stick and cast a circle in my witchy way. I summoned the Goddess and then I began. I felt so much better doing it this time. Much more relaxed and less worried about being caught. I undressed and stood naked and bound and alone in the green quiet of the forest. What a sexy sight it would have been had anybody seen. I imagined you right there with me, encouraging me, witnessing, being so tuned in to me and so turned on. The moment I emptied my full to the brim cup of blood, into my hands, and just before I was about to anoint myself, I felt that same moment of having my breath taken away as I did before. I was about to pour this warm life giving blood all over me, there is something about doing this that feels ancient, dark, sacred, edgy and primal. I felt much joy and ease with what I was doing and then I heard a hummingbird near and it made me smile. I marvelled in the bright color of crimson red all over my legs, belly, arms. I smeared it on my face. I imagined you, I rubbed my clit on an exposed part of root but it wasn’t that smooth so I grabbed the stick I had peeled and cast my circle with and I used it to pleasure myself instead of my hands. I was totally wet and aroused but I felt afraid to make noise for fear of being heard. I then felt like untying my rope and it felt so freeing to be released, unbound and free, naked and wild in the woods and covered in my womb blood. I used my true “magic wand” until I came into higher state of arousal. I was showing you. You were right there watching. Then I arched my back over the log and laid back. I imagined how beautiful it must have looked, I felt beautiful, dark and mystical. I came with an intense and silent orgasm convulsing in the forest with only her as my witness and the flies buzzing around me. I took some time to admire the drying blood. To take in my surroundings and to pray and ask for more guidance. Afterwards I took delight in washing myself off and giving back my blood to the earth at the place I had made at my feet. Then I sat and listened.
Earth energy that rises, heavenly power that descends.
Meeting in my heart to heal and mend, that which keeps me from being me, she is here now for the world to see.
I finished up, got dressed and closed my circle again, then I crossed the river back and walked to the main trail, I felt lighter, brighter, softer and more beautiful. I walked slower, thinking about the real source of my power, about the divine feminine to which I am re-uniting within me and about cougar energy when all of the sudden a big beautiful owl flew right over my head!! She landed in the tree right behind me. I stopped and turned and she turned her head and looked at me and I felt blessed. I am always honoured by the confirmations the Universe gives me when I am walking in my truth. It has always been so. I am thankful for this moment.
xxx dirty little girl
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