Day 7 - Airport Masturbation

It's late.  I am at the airport trying to catch some sleep before my early flight out in the morning.
I am lying down on a bench, covered in a soft blanket, even my head is covered.  Someone is asleep on the bench behind me. It is not terribly busy yet but there is a steady stream of people passing by, even for this late hour.  I slowly slip my hand down my pants.  Am I really going to do this? Yes, why yes I am.  With my middle finger, I rub and vibrate my clit through my outer lips only.  This is different for me.  After a few minutes, I find a stream of pleasure and I am hot on it's trail.  I am not going to lose it,  though it is harder to keep track of my clit like this but I am determined.  It is a game now, can I actually pull this off, in public, on this airport bench?

Every time someone walks by I feel my breath become still. They all pass. What is the worst that will happen? Maybe I will never move. I will stay hidden away under here and never know if someone noticed.

I try very hard to move just my finger, not my arm so as not to be too obvious.  My face is hot, it is hard to breathe under the blanket.   I am turned on, public sex always excites me.  I keep rubbing, through my labia only.  I never feel my silky wetness.  Soon I cum in silent contractions, trying not too move my body. Afterwards I take a deep breath and let my body relax entirely.   I hear the guy behind me snoring.  I have a secret smile on my face. I peek out, the coast is clear.   Day 7 and it is done.
loving you
Dlg

Day 6 Dreamtime

I had a full day of work and then my kids came back from being away for a week.  At the end of the night when everyone was tucked in bed,  I finally managed to settle down and have space to myself.  I became engaged in a much needed meditation sitting in my bed.  I traveled into my heart space looking to release the places that I had built up walls, the places where I have hardened, the places that felt dark.  There are plenty,  but then I came to the place of hot burning flames and found the source of unending love and passion that reside within me.  I traveled through deep space to find my own central sun fully alive and  burning bright.  It was clear as day, my job is to know that, to expand that and to breathe all that fire and love of my heart more into this world.  I was so comfortable there, I didn't want to leave.  I stayed for a while, then I must admit, I fell asleep.  I went into a deep and peaceful sleep and entered into the dreamtime.  That was my practice for tonight, my self pleasuring came in the form of waves of deep rest and rejuvenation in the center of my heart.  Tomorrow is another day daddy.
From my heart to yours,
your dirty sleepy girl

Day 5 Sex and Sax

End of the night, I turned off all the lights, lit a candle and put on the slow, sexy sounds of the saxophone.  I put on a skimpy dress and I danced, in my living room, watching my reflection in the window.  This is one of my favourite things to do.  Dance alone in the dark with a slight reflection of myself to watch in windows.  I danced slowly and sensually.  I love the way my body moves.  I love the way it looks when it's moving so freely.  I turned myself on.  I imagined maybe I would turn someone else on too.  I let the music move me,  I let myself feel as sexy as I could imagine, hips swaying.   I touched my body everywhere.  I rubbed my nipples through my dress until they were hard.   I teased myself.  I lifted my dress, I touched my thighs, my belly, my throat and hair.  It felt nice, in the darkness.  I danced for a while and then I stepped back and sat on the edge of the couch and spread open my legs.  I watched myself in the window as I felt the moisture between my legs.  I took my time, I was in no rush.  It was a soft, slow arousal building.  It was nice.  I didn't even feel a need to have an orgasm but in the end I did.  It was sweet.  That is how I felt, and how I ended this day, sweet and sexy.
all my love
your dlg

Day 4 The bath

Filling up the tub
I lie down inside

let the water run over my clit

little waves of warm pleasure

rising up inside 

it feels good to have my legs 

up in the air and spread wide open
while the water pours down 

upon me

I begin to move my hips

as if I could fuck the current

just a little

I raise them slightly up

toward the faucet to feel

more pressure 

oh yes that feels good

she is now is awake and wanting more

but pretty soon my tub 

is full to the brim with water

so I turn it off and

just lie back now 

feel the silky wetness of my being

how it feels different than the texture 

of the water that surrounds it

I relax back for a while

enjoying the moment
then I move to my bed

in the coziness of my room

I touch and breathe and spread my juices all over

So juicy wet

I feel so blessed 

I feel my arousal rise

I fantasize

about you

about a woman

about having her tongue to please me

softness again softness

I am cumming again

in rippling waves of orgasmic bliss

Then I am still

letting the energy work it's  way through

In stillness I fall asleep

the lights were still on

Day 3 Sexy Skype with Daddy

This afternoon was a treat getting to have a sexy Skype date with you.   I always love witnessing each other and sharing in our pleasure that way.  Of course I would prefer to have you in the flesh but it is what we have right now so there we were.  I so enjoy being on camera for you, especially with my hitachi.  I felt sad when you said you might not let me use it today but then you did and I was so happy!  I delight in letting myself completely go for you, with all my sound and breath and wanting.  Seeing you handle and stroke your cock turns me on so very much.  Seeing your naked body lying there  I am instantly aroused.   You turn me on, I turn you on, it is a beautiful thing.  I love hearing your primal sounds.  I love the energy and charge we share, it is so beautiful.  I could have had an orgasm in seconds, I had to come off my hitachi which I love to sit on and switch to fucking myself with my dildo so I wouldn't go over the edge too quickly.  I relished seeing all your cum, you know how much it turns me on.  I hate thinking how long I have to go without seeing it again.  That is my truth for tonight.  I am so pleased that we could share ourselves together today.  I had such a nice big orgasm with you and afterwards when I left for work, I was still feeling hot and aroused, my cheeks were rosy red.  I wonder what tomorrow will bring.  Thank you for today!

In service and in gratitude,
your dirty baby girl
xxx

Day 2-The Goddess

Tonight on this full harvest moon, I went to a women's gathering to honour the divine feminine that is awakening in each of us.  I dressed in white, something I rarely do. There is so much black in my life, it felt good to be lighter, softer, allowing feminine essence to shine through me.  When the time came, I undressed and lay in the middle of 7 woman I did not know.  With my eyes shut I let them adore me.  I let them pour their total love and prayers all over my body, my heart, my feet, my yoni.  I was covered from head to toe in flower petals and anointed with Frankincense as they chanted the mantra of awakening over and over.  Seed sounds to ignite that which is already alive within me.    I allowed myself to receive as much love and devotion as I could imagine.  This was my death and rebirth and it was perfect.  I had just ovulated right before the gathering was to begin.  Something in me was bursting, ready to have a voice in this world.  When the night was over I came home, tired from the long night of chanting, moving energy and being present for 7 others in their process.  But I am committed to my pleasure, I am committed to you and your guidance daddy.  I am committed to documenting my process in this blog as you asked.

Tonight as I lay naked on my white sheet, it was she the Goddess, who was calling forth pleasure.  Now my hands adored my own body, feeling every inch of my skin, my hair, my juicy wetness for which I am so grateful.  I blessed myself in oil again.  Tonight it was about devotion, deserving, adoration and allowing me to feel her emerging, calling forth the pleasure that is hers/mine.  How easy it would be to have just gone to sleep.  How easy it is to forget that we matter, that we deserve to be honoured with delicious slow hands touching with nothing but love.  I brought myself to orgasmic rippling waves again, by myself, under the light of the harvest moon, in my room, alone and I liked it.
all my love,
your dlg

7 days of Pleasure-Day One

It is late, I am tired from not having slept much last night at the party.  I am about to go to bed and am alone in my room.  This is the perfect way to end the weekend.  I lit the candle you gave me.  I let the night air in and I undress until I am totally naked in the glow of the candlelight.   I lay down on my white sheets, put my headphones on and begin to cover my entire body with oil.  I am going to give my  body all the care and attention it deserves.  It is begging to be touched.  I breath in more air as I slide my hands all over my now slick body.  It feels delicious.  I play with both my nipples, I massage my beautiful pussy, taking so much time and care to say hello to all the outside places that love to be touched before I begin to slid my hands over my clit.  I keep breathing in and moving, moving, moving my body, circling my hips, spreading my legs wide open in the air, arching my back and inviting my energy to move.  The coconut oil melting down around my clit and into my cunt is delightful and arousing.  I begin to feel my arousal building as I massage and rub and love myself up.  In no time  my heart beat quickens, my breathing becomes deeper and my arousal is higher.  I squeeze my nipples and circle my clit in sync with each other and suddenly I feel like getting my dildo.  I have an intense desire to be filled and as soon as I slide it in I am moaning in pure pleasure.  I have to stop now and then to not go over the edge too quickly.   I am so hungry to be fucked.  My cunt is begging for it.  I think about you daddy, about the way we stared into each others eyes while we made love, about kissing you.  About how good it feels to be in your arms.   I slide my dildo in and out slowly as I think of you now while I massaged my clit.  It feels so good then that I  just start giving it everything I have.  I pump my hips, arch my back, take big breaths in as I let the pleasure fill my body up.  I need this, I want this pleasure.  I want it every day in my life, in ways big and small.   I pump my dildo into me wishing it was your cock.  Feeling how much I miss you,  I let myself go, body convulsing fully in a much needed orgasm.  I lay there for a minute or two savouring the experience.   Then I slide it back in for more pleasure, more joy.  Then I rub my juices all over my body.  I love the smell.  I love how copious my fluid is.   I want to just lie here and drink it all in.  I am filled with gratitude for you as I often am.  And this is how I end my night.  I will look forward to talking to you tomorrow.
xoxo
dlg

On the Dance Floor

Have an orgasm in the middle of a crowded dance floor you said.   Tonight was the night.  The moon was full and high, the summer night was perfect.  I had my plan.  When the party was at the peak, I was going to do it, somehow.  I didn't really know how, but I was feeling brave.  Things got going so late, and I was drinking more than I usually do.   I was wondering if there would be an erotic connection that I would make to help things along but there really wasn't.   I was growing impatient as the party seemed to take a long time to gather momentum.  People were scattered everywhere, the dance floor was not always occupied.  In all truth, I was not feeling very aroused in any way.   After a long while, I decided to go to a private room and play with myself for 10 min to arouse myself.  Surely that would help.  Then I would put my vibrator in my panties and go back out to dance.  Perfect!   So that is exactly what I did, although I brought a friend to do this with me which made it way more fun.   My 10 minutes turned into a spontaneous dance of erotic contact and movement between us full of beautiful intensity.  I made it end although we could have stayed longer.   I had to stay on task.  We then gathered ourselves back up and I snuck back on the dance floor with my vibrator turned on.   I really had to work hard to find my arousal.  It felt good but not quite enough to get me going full tilt by any stretch.  I tried moving with it,  swaying my hips into it, rolling and slithering my body along with it as I felt my labia touching the vibrator.  I tried standing still,  I tried to breath it up, drink it in, but all to no avail.  Dam!!!  This is so interesting.  I stayed with it,  closing my eyes to really get in touch with my feeling state.   Maybe I was too tipsy, maybe the alcohol was prohibiting my arousal? That was a possibility.    I went inwards, trying to really be aware of every sensation possible.    I let my body move with no care for anyone else just doing what it loves to do.  Suddenly the sexy young blonde woman was whispering in my ear.  She said,  "I  am loving watching you dance.  Your movement is so authentic."  I said, "Thank you" and then we danced closer.  I pressed my forehead to hers and our hips swayed together for a few minutes and then we parted ways.  I continued to struggle to find my higher state of arousal, the one that would bring me closer to that edge.   I was trying not to go down the road of frustration.  The dance floor was empty, save for a few people.  I was already feeling that dreaded sense of failure.  The idea that I was letting you down is too much for me to bare.  I have to complete my assignment!   Shit!   I am going to have to tell you the truth and I was already dreading it.   Am I failing in my role as submissive by not following your orders?  Is  the truth of my experience valid or am I not trying hard enough?  Surely I MUST be able to have a freaking orgasm!   Lying to you would never be an option.  I moved to the corner of the room,  leaned against the wall and closed my eyes again trying so hard to concentrate on the vibrator, on my sensations.  The next thing I know a man is in front of me asking me if I am ok.  This is clearly not working.  I go back to the private space  and lie down for 5 minutes.  I slip my hand down to my clit.  I am wet, really wet but I am not able to generate my arousal and sustain it long enough.   I go back for one more try on the dance floor.  I begin to miss you immensely.  I wish you were awake to be part of my journey right now.  The physical distance that is between us is all too real for me in this moment and I feel sad.  I want you closer to me.   My friend comes and finds me on the dance floor and asks me to go outside.  I felt a sense of relief in ways.   I turned off my vibrator in the hallway but kept it inside my panties.   It is well past 3am,  I must have danced with my vibrator on for at least 30 minutes but it felt like a lot more.  It never ran out of batteries, but I did.  I am not sure how you will view this.  I am not sure what you will do or say.  Will there be a punishment? Will you be disappointed in me?  Will you think I am failing in my role? I am afraid of not being good enough daddy.
I deeply desire to be your best dirty girl ever.
I long to please you, very much.
I think I tried my best.

Your sad and sorry dirty little girl