Here is my answer to your questions daddy.
1. Why do I want a D/s relationship such as ours? Because it is a strong desire embedded deep within my being me to fully submit myself to a man, to surrender all of myself and play within the container of trust and love we have created to explore all the intensity, all the passion all the charge of power exchange at it's finest. I want it because I crave with all of myself to be on my knees in service to someone who I have given myself over to. I want it because I love to see how my Dom gets to fulfil his own desires through power exchange and how my service and devotion and love for him satisfies his similar needs. I love the primal raw energy that is born of the sexual exchange, how it fills him, allows him to act on his hungers and desires in a safe and consensual way. I love how he gets to play with the energy of control and domination through my submission. My submission is a true and beautiful gift to give as is the love and care of my Dominant.
2. What is it about a D/s relationship that I need in my life? The gift that D/s gives me is a consensual, agreed upon space and place to let go, to be lead, and to co-create in a dynamic that cannot be met or played out in any other place in my life. I need the strength of the masculine arms around me and I need to know that someone in this world has my back, completely without question. I need the deep sensual, sexual charge that comes through power exchange and play in BDSM and I need a place where my service is desired, accepted, expected and respected. I am in charge of so many other places in my life as a wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, caretaker, business owner etc... I need the D/s relationship to allow myself to be someone else for a change. I need it to do what I do best, love, serve and give myself over to someone. I need it because I am a dirty little slut girl that needs to be fucked, taken and used. I need a D/s relationship to have some of my sexual needs, kinks and desires satisfied. I want nothing more than to be on my knees at the foot of my Dom, waiting for his command. Whether it is to suck his cock or someone else's, to spread my legs for him to have his way with me or to sit in silence in some space, witnessed by others, until he tells me what he wants me to do. I desire to be slapped across the face, to be flogged and bound and cum on. To be forced to take his cock deep in my throat. I desire to be fucked deep and hard and in so many ways. I desire to be the object of his desire for him to lose himself with me. I desire to share my menstrual blood with him, I desire to have deep passionate kisses with him until my cunt is dripping down my leg. I desire to offer my body to him for his kinks to be satisfied. I desire to always expand and grow in my sexual erotic life with him.
3. Why do I want a D/s relationship with you? Because when we first met we were instantly attracted to each other, because you have so much to share as a teacher and guide. (See number 8). Being you sub is a perfect place for you to share and teach me what you know, to sculpt me into being a better person, into truly surrendering and to loving well myself and others and because you are so very good at being my Daddy. Because you are tough and make me think. I want it with you because we seem to have great polarity, with your intense masculine and my deep feminine, and both our desires to be a switch, it makes for a great sexual charge and place of growth and learning for us both. I have not found a really great sexual dynamic such as this with very many other men. I am very picky and I am looking for something more specific and more complete which I believe you are capable of. Because I love you and I feel like I have something to give you in terms of my submission that benefits you in your life as well. I see how I can teach you about how to love well, how to surrender and receive and how I can also be a place where you can have some of your desires, kinks and needs met too. I want to be in a D/s relationship with you because you are a devoted and spiritual person and you are working for the greater good of love and Eros which is something that I am aware of and interested in and do not have any other man in my life who operates in this way so it is appealing to me because I consider myself to be a deeply spiritual person working in service of lovelove and unity. I resonate with the way you attempt to live your life. You are consistently trying to better your self in every way, speaking the truth, trying to love well and sharing your gifts with the world. You value good health, fun, depth in relationship, clear communication, partnership, community building and keeping the erotic alive in your life and these are some of the things I value as well. I feel we are a good match.
4. What qualities do you bring that make me want to be in a relationship with you? You bring me a fuck load of strength, a deep intense masculinity that I love and crave, devotion, commitment, understanding, knowledge, patience, and an embodied sexuality. You are also tricky and strict and don't let me get away with shit. You push me always towards growth. I respect and love that about you.
5. Why I have not found a D/s relationship with someone where I live? Because after I met you I stopped looking. You seemed to have everything I was looking for and thought we could make it work somehow even this far apart. Because we grew so close so quickly and I began to open my heart to you. I only have met one other man here who I would consider being submissive to but he would not be my "dom" per se, it would be more for play space. Although I wish we lived closer, if we lived too close it might bring me out of balance with the rest of my responsibilities because I don't think I could be a 24/7 sub and live the rest of my life as a mother and wife and work full time etc...so the distance is ok in some ways as long as we could see each other enough. For me seeing you 4 times a year would be perfect. Something we both could look forward to with regularity and a way that I could pay you back more often with my presence, physical touch and love. Right now we do not have that and so the distance is a challenge.
6. Why do I not seek the D/s relationship with my husband? Because after 20 years of being married, I feel we have fairly ingrained in our roles, responsibilities and dynamic with each other which is fine. We have our own unique charge and exchange and dynamic that fills other needs and desires which I love but I do not find we possess the kind of dynamic or charge that I am looking for in terms of domination, control and BDSM so it is why I choose to seek it elsewhere. Also because I can. I want to experience as much of life and others in all the wonderful ways and varieties I can while I am still young and healthy and vibrant. Because I am in a non monogamous situation at the moment I am fortunate to be able to do this. I am adventurous and want to take advantage of as many experiences in life as possible.
7. Why do I find that my partner cannot fulfill this role? For one, I don't think my husband wants to be my "Dom." That is my thing, not his. I don't think I could fully surrender myself to the degree that I am looking for because in our relationship and life I am and have to be quite masculine, yang and in charge of a lot. We have a great rough and tumble, yummy sexual life, where he is mostly topping and manhandling me and I love that but in D/s, I want that and a whole lot more of the guidance in the rest of my life that best come from another man. My husband is also completely supportive of me getting my needs such as this met elsewhere and I am blessed to have him in my life be as understanding and open as he is.
8. What have I learned in the past three years being your dirty little girl? You have taught me so much already about how to be in my power, have a voice, speak my truth with clarity and compassion. You have reminded me of the importance and sacredness of connecting to my menstrual blood, reconnected me to my deep feminine nature. You have taught me how to honour and respect the needs of important men in my life and how to help them feel heard. You have helped me become a better lover to myself and to listen to my cunt and feed my erotic life. You have taught me how to move forward with the truth of who I am as a kinky person in this world without shame and speak about being a submissive publicly with pride. You have taught me how to be patient, how to honour all the steps needed along the way in the process of relating to you. You have taught me the importance of setting intentions, boundaries and agreements and how to continual re evaluate everything so that I/we don't become complacent in our relationship. All that you have taught me has helped me grow so much already in my relationship with you and in my life as a whole. You have taught me to remember that I am beautiful, that there is nothing wrong with me and that people love me. You have taught me how to receive and hold space for all your own kinks and pleasures. You have taught me how to endure bondage and move through the pleasures and pains of your administrations to my body. I am sure there is more but right now these are all the things that have come to mind. You have taught and shared so much with me and I am full of gratitude for your guidance.
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