A year in review

This past year has been, in my view, an excellent year of steady growth, understanding, friendship, support and refinement of my role as submissive to daddy.  What started out as a fairly rocky beginning to 2014, when we were still in the midst of trying to be something different and navigating our long distance relationship from 3000 miles apart, has ended in a mutually satisfying, beautifully supportive, erotic and loving co-creation of our D/s relationship.  Here is what I noticed.  When I was trying to hard to make us something we just couldn't be, it created tension and pain.  When I finally let go of all my attachment to what I thought it should be, when I allowed myself to be myself,  to not fall into the "I am not good enough" cycle and to be honest about where I was at in my life, what I was truly able to give and how I felt about daddy, things got a lot easier.  All the defensiveness dropped away and daddy and I could just be.  Without having the fear of my defensive patterns and the pull away reaction that daddy had as a result, we could ease into freer and deeper conversations where we could be more and more honest and open about everything.  A funny thing happens when you are not afraid of losing something, when you move out of fear and recognize the gift available in working with what is real in the moment.  It  becomes so much easier to be totally honest and authentic and our hearts can open more fully.  That seems like what happened with us.  We began to move into deeper connection, trust and friendship as time went on.  Relationships take time to build.   I love that daddy and I can talk very openly about everything and help each other navigate our way through our other relationships with genuine care.  We both want each other to thrive, be happy and fulfilled in love and in our erotic lives and we have consistently supported each other in this direction, even through the jealously that inevitably crops up.  I love that I can be totally myself with daddy and he with me and that we can be vulnerable with each other.  I can lean on him, I can fall and he will catch me, he will always have my back and my best interest in mind and I know that now.  Along with being his devoted and loyal sub, I want him to feel held by me and I am pretty sure he does.  2014 has been an evolution of our love, our commitment and desire to move forward in the most clear and loving ways.  I have learned so much more about daddy, watched him grow as a man, learn and struggle in his life just like we all do.  I have deepened into my role as his dlg and I look forward to our future, to more visits, longer stays, more play, fun, surrender,  passion, and kink.   I look forward to it all and what more we will choose to create and how we will weave this beautiful relationship into our lives in more rich and fulfilling ways.  I love you daddy.  I can't imagine my life without you in it.

Here's to another amazing year ahead,
big love from
your dirty little girl
xxx